Me. My Life. Now and forever.From the moment I found out I was pregnant until the moment I die, I am, have been, and will be, first and foremost, a mom. I am not first a woman, wife, daughter, sister, friend, professional, writer, student, consumer, neighbor, citizen … I am a mom. I am all of those other things too. But it’s motherhood that defines me.
Prior to pregnancy, I never imagined this would be the case. I thought, “Me, a mom?” It seemed so obscure, so matronly, so permanent. I always loved children and thought that I would have one or two (someday), but I was in no hurry. I knew that once I had a child my life would change forever.
It did change forever, which is a great thing. I changed forever, which is even a better thing. It gave me wings. It brought forth the meaning in my life. It led me to realize that I had waited for a reason, and that all of my experiences up to this point served to prepare me for my ultimate role and journey. And what an amazing yet scary, at times, journey it is.
My hesitation led me to a later start in motherhood. While it was a late start, it was also a great start. I was ready. I no longer feared things like obscurity, matronliness, or permanence. I now embraced those things (even matronly).
Motherhood is so many things – mostly good, some bad, all incredibly worth it. It’s filled with wonderful contradictions. It’s a sacrifice, yet rewarding. It’s hard work yet a lot of fun. It’s natural yet foreign (at first). It’s intuitive, educational, and unlike anything else. Motherhood is love in its truest form. It’s everything you can think of, and more. Motherhood is me, my life, now and forever.